I’m coming home

After long time living alone, I decided to come back home. The reasons are simple, I completed things I wanted to do and now I can back home for something new. I have already packed my clothes but I will stay about week and after leave this city with my lovely backpack. Summer and autumn was fun. I met a lot of interesting people, became more smart, hung out in clubs, danced as crazy, loved cooking, went to theatre (OMG!), watched art house movies in movie clubs, went to boxing and etc. The most important thing that I figured out was some things which I wanted before was not actual what I need. Any task can be completed mentally and physically.  If the task is completed physically but not mentally, you will still come back to it again and again. But when you complete task mentally, it’s totally completed. Thanks to Diyor aka who explained to me in detail, it would be hard for me to understand by myself.



See, there are no skeletons in my shelf?! 😀

Listening Radical Face – Welcome home, son.



It seems to me that I can not miss such an interesting topic and should be something written about it. On the other hand, depression is a taboo in our society, it is impossible to talk about it as people may think badly of you. In medical reference books you can read that depression is an illness, but for some reason, avoid openly talk about it. You must agree if you have a toothache you’re not going to be ashamed of but rather will tell to all in a row even to not familiar people. If depression is a common illness so why hesitate? Is not that funny? It is ridiculous of course, so let’s laugh. Now let’s try to analyze this depression. If you understand me correctly I’m talking about that our, major depression, and not about some sort of manic depressive syndrome.


What happens when you start to get depressed? Of course, you don’t want to do anything, mood falls and feel “bad”. But if you notice I write the word bad in quotation, because I’m not even sure it’s bad or good. You just need to understand that on earth there is no absolute laws and the separation of good and bad is bad. The fact that you evaluate everything in order is bad and depression is good :).


And you thought maybe things are not so bad as you think?

Maybe it’s time you change something in your life, and depression as a signal you want to literally explained to, and you stupidly ignore it?

Maybe you need a vacation?


If you are asked yourself these questions I think you’re starting to doubt that depression is bad. Imagine what it would be if you didn’t feel pain? Is that good or bad? Now someone muttered that it would be great to not feel pain. Yeah, I agree, it would be cooler to see people for no reason began to die in the streets. And the reason is simple, he stepped on a needle in the morning and did not notice it, but oh well, he does not notice the pain, he’s cool. But on the way to work, he just fell asleep forever, it is not clear why and how, somebody call me a pathologist :). It’s funny, isn’t it? Well, I think you get the idea, the point is to stop hanging tags, not only on depression, but also on other things.


If you have your depression will be seen as a call to action in that case you will win. Here the most important to understand the reason because of which you are depressed. This may be unloved job, maybe you want something for a long time, maybe need to forgive someone (often ourselves). Instead of crying try to do what you’ve been putting off for later. If you turned you cool, and if not, then don’t worry this is normal. Before the start of something large-scale try to do:


  • Take a shower, preferably cold.
  • After a shower, change your clothes carefully.
  • Clean the house.
  • Throw away the garbage, all the excess out of your room.


Following these simple procedures will be easy in your mind and you should go through your depression. But do not forget one important fact, you do not have to mess around or else everything will start again. I’m not saying that you should always do so. Sometimes it is very hard to understand it but you also keep in mind, if life has no meaning then there is no point in depression twice. Of course, sometimes gettting depressed with a bottle of your favorite beverage in front of a TV would not hurt anyone but only without bigotry. Most importantly do not turn into a emo.


There is the view that when you are depressed you are more rational and more clearly can see the world, but alas, not in your favor. After all, great things started after the great depressions.


Dedicated to the most washed-pessimists – I have good news for you, the happiest thing is that nothing lasts forever, even your depression. Over time, you will become bored getting depressed and you start to feeling “good.”

As I said earlier do not take my words as something absolute, it is just an alternate opinion about depression. Enjoy life until she tired of you.


Get a life!

Beef bourguignon

My flat smells like a  t̶e̶e̶n̶’̶s̶ ̶s̶p̶i̶r̶i̶t̶ wine. Because today I cooked “Beef bourguignon”, traditional french dish. Recipe was from one website don’t remember the actual address but I may say that dish is quite tasty, especially beef. Beef was so juicy with wine taste. I noticed that I missed some mistakes during cooking:

  • Sauce was not thick, because added to much wine
  • Fat was not so tasty as I expected, so better don’t add it
  • Forgot about spices and garlic
  • Added few tomatos

Anyway I think it’s good start. Next time I try to correct my mistakes and maybe provide my own recipe. Sure, to make you envy I will add photo.

ImageThis is how beef bourguignon looks, but it’s more tasty than view. Yummy! The main two options are: cooking doesn’t take too much time and you do not need mad skills to cook it. If you want to cook beef bourguignon you can easily find recipe in internet, so I won’t duplicate it. Bon appetit!

P.S I feel myself little bit drunkie, don’t you know why?!

First post


I decided to create my personal blog to read it when I’m 100 years old and also answer to frequently asked questions which people ask when they meet me. About what I will write? You know I’m too modest to write only about myself and try to write about traveling, food, lifehacks, etc and sure with lulz. Hope you will enjoy reading my blog.